Saturday, June 23, 2012

Physical and emotional Pain..

Seems that I haven't blogged in a while.  There's a good reason why.  First off I have been in some physical discomfort, in other words physical pain.  Plus, it's hard for me to type like I used to.  I just had Neck surgery and still recovering from my back surgery from the late fall of last year. 
Seems that I keep hearing that God has a Great plan for my life.  Well, I am really wondering what that plan is and will GOD reveal it to me before I die?  I am really getting tired of hearing the same Ol' Same Ol' Line... "GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOUR LIFE AND IT"S AWESOME."    "Oh Really?"  If so how come someone else knows that God has a great plan for my life and I don't?  I am getting tired of hearing that and am beginning to bark back and say to the world, "Well if GOD has a great plan then why doesn't HE want to tell me or share it with me?" 
Sorry folks not all of Christianity is a bowl of gorgeous delicious cherries of FUN in the sun or SON."  Christianity is a day to day belief and level of faith.

You have to trust that today God is going to help you make it through the day.  It may be a miracle that you have prayed about for years, or it may be another pain in the butt of a problem that keeps getting worse and festering till one day you can't take it any more and you just say to yourself that you quit.  Yes YOU have thought that and so have I.  I told my husband the other day that I am not a great Christian and NO I don't believe that God will bless all HIS believers all the time.  In fact, I truly believe that God does have favorites each and every day and today HE may NOT be favoring YOU nor me.  In fact HE may just sit back and watch you get smacked right upside the head with a huge battle of CRAP....

Well, Jesus if you have a miracle for me and a Great plan for my life and the life of all believers out there, would you be willing to share it with US?  Please?  I'm getting older and not feeling as strong as I used to.  In fact, I feel like crap today and I sure wish to GOD that either YOU would give me a heads up or else just pull the plug and let me go home to Heaven so I can be a part of a great party that most of my family is enjoying without me!!!!

I love the scripture that says, "I believe Lord, HELP ME WITH MY UNBELIEF."  Got any clues as to where that is in the bible?  If so, why not share it with the rest of us poor souls that are believing for at least a tiny morsel of a miracle for our lives!!!!